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sfw memories part 8 Beautiful Creature

2023-08-13T01:43:18Z

Spike had been furious, never before had he been too slow, too weak? sometimes but never too slow. He had followed my captors as far as the road and noticed that the car they got into was entirely unmarked. No license plate, no company logo, no windows just a solid black shape. Going back inside the first person he had turned his anger on was Lorne but he soon found the demon passed out in the back room with a fairly large needle sticking out of his neck. Deciding that this was enough evidence to prove Lorne's innocence he plucked the needle out and pocketed it before turning his rage to the private room. As soon as he had seen who Angel was meeting with his fury had increased. With a full vamp face out he had forced her up against the wall spitting accusations of "wanting revenge".

The girl had looked like Eve but wasn't her. The thing that tried to take me over had to go somewhere so it chose someone desperate and lonely and filled with so much rage. Of course it had taken longer to get Eve so she was just now overpowering her own body. That's why she had wanted to meet with Angel. In trade for biting her and taking some of her power she would do the best she could to disrupt plans on the evil forces side. She also wouldn't contact us again and take Lindsey off our hands. Angel had just finished his side of the bargain when Spike had burst in. That's when she had explained the deal to him and had no idea that Spike or I were even out in the bar. Reluctantly he had let her go and Angel had suggested that they (meaning him, Spike, Buffy and Faith) go back to the place they were sheltered and tell everyone what had happened so they could track me down.

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Darkness, that's all I saw, distant shapes danced just out of reach but something told me not to go to them. I couldn't move anyway. I had been ripped from him and it felt like an empty hole in my heart. But ,and I was filled with anguish when I realized this, I couldn't remember him. Who was he? Who was I? I choked and spat, a growl ripping through my throat. I didn't remember who anyone was but I knew these distant shapes had torn me from someone I was very close to and they would pay for it.

~~~

Spike had made sure his entering of our safe house was not quiet. He had wanted everyone to know I was gone. Willow had done her best to calm him meanwhile he'd given Wesley the vial he'd removed from Lorne for Wes and Cordelia to study. Kennedy was the one to suggest they make our bond visible, Willow had reassured him it wouldn't effect it. After convincing Angel that they needed to go right that instant they followed our bond which was now visible as a bright white light trailing from Spike out the door.

~~~

The bright white light broke my dark prison and flowed into me. I knew it had to do with him. It represented our connection our...our bond! Hope flooded through me. This was love yes! I clung on to that feeling, I could feel him growing closer. I knew once he reached me everything would make sense.

~~~

Spike had torn though the demons guarding the place. He had barely had time to shift into his vamp face as he had followed the bright white light emanating from him. Then he had reached the large central chamber where I had been held. Although he still found me pretty even when all "grr" something about this one still had given him pause. He said it was like I didn't see him, my now yellow eyes staring right past him.

~~~

The darkness had thinned then, I felt the light grow in intensity. He was here! My heart sang. My vision cleared to reveal..."Spike!" I cried, my vision widening and he laughed in relief. "I forgot you, forgot almost everything..." I choked on my words. It was just then as I went to touch him that I realized my hands were shackled behind my back.

He cupped my face "It's ok love, it's not your fault you forgot. Let's just get you back safe alright?" he kissed me tenderly wiping the tears from my eyes.

I nodded and he moved behind me to force open my shackles. Almost as soon as my wrists were free I collapsed into him.

"Easy pet," he cooed "Just hold on to me."

I nodded and clung to him as he carried me out.
(this one is still in progress)

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Sfw memories part 7 Chills

2023-08-13T01:40:14Z

I spent the rest of the night spacing out and trying to recover as much energy as possible. The last time I had drank as much blood as I had in a row was the morning of my turning. Every time I took another mug I made sure it was alright with Angel and Spike first. Spike's only concern was my well being and Angel only had one mug a day if he could help it. I think in total I had about 3 or 4 mugs, not a concerning amount but it made sense once you considered I hadn't drank any since before Spike and I's "Last Day".

As I spaced out I could catch snippets of different conversations happening around me. At this point I was back in Spike's lap and he seemed to be trying to recover energy as well. As we sat together I couldn't help but hear Buffy's voice cut through the conversation buzz.

"I just can't believe this is where my life is at." She was saying.

"What do you mean B? You knew you were destined to fight bad guys from the word go." Faith said in an affectionate tone.

I kept my eyes trained on the fire in front of me as to not give up the fact I was listening in, even accidentally.

"No, I mean like Romantically." Buffy paused for a moment "Not that you haven't been the greatest thing to ever happen to me."

"I better be." Faith's tone was teasing "But I get it, that bisexuality can sneak up on you." they both laughed at this.

I snapped out of my listening zone out and cleared my throat to get Spike's attention. He shook his head once to clear it before smiling at me gently "Something bugging you pet?"

"Kind of? When Cordelia mentioned driving around all day you and Dawn sort of shared a look. What was that about?"

He chuckled "That is an interesting story love, she tells it better than I do really." He looked around and spotted Dawn "Oy! Niblette!" he called.

Dawn startled and looked in our direction "What?" her tone half annoyed half amused.

"My girl here wants to know the story of our little road-trip." he smirked and motioned for her to come over to where we were.

Shrugging she crossed the short distance to us, taking a seat on the ground in front of us. She told the, quite convoluted, story of how a very powerful demon chased her and the old crew across the desert outside of Sunnydale. Spike filled in the parts she wasn't around for.

As she neared the end of her story I sensed Spike becoming a bit uncomfortable so I cut her short. "Thanks for helping pass the time and for filling me in. I'm sure the solution to it all was just as...complicated."

She shrugged "I guess." she was smart enough to pick up on what I was doing. My curiosity satiated I let her go back to whatever she was doing. I looked up and realized just then that I had never been more relieved to see the orange tint to the sky.

All of us managed to fit into the car somehow and the ride to our new place of shelter was quiet. Once we arrived I desperately needed a shower so I sequestered myself in the bathroom. I had to smell many different soaps before I found something to my liking. As I waited for the water to heat up there was a knock at the door. "Pet? Can I come in?"

I sighed in relief and let Spike in. He locked the bathroom door behind him and his lips found mine easily. I melted into him as his hands roamed up my body. I didn't even need to tell him we would need to be quiet and fast like our first shower escapade. Just one look between us said everything.

I didn't like putting on dirty clothes but it was better than not having showered. I carefully peaked out the door to make sure our path was clear before we exited and rejoined the group.

No one had noticed our absence as Buffy, Faith and Angel were talking quietly at the kitchen table. Dawn was curled up on the couch with a bleary expression on her face, staring off into space. Cordy and Wes had curled up on the floor and fallen asleep in each-other's arms. Willow, Kennedy, Gunn and Giles were absent from immediate view but I could hear muffled conversation from one of the bedrooms that told me Willow and Kennedy were in there. I took this time to look around the place, it had almost no doors except those for the bedrooms and the one bathroom. There were three bedrooms, one large one which I assumed Angel and his girlfriend used, and two much smaller rooms. One of them was the one Kennedy and Willow were sequestered in, the other one stood open. It wasn't a lot of room but more than I had thought given Angel's description. When he saw us he gestured us over to the table.

"So, Buffy, Faith and I are going to go over our plan. If you and Spike want to rest up in the other guest room that would be fine. Gun and Giles went to get more essentials and supplies." he paused and then sighed "and I do mean rest." he said firmly "I know you two have that bond but I hope you can be respectful of everyone else."

Spike made a mock offended face "I'm surprised you think so little of me mate." even as he said this he pulled me in by the waist, "I can, in fact, keep it in my pants."

Angel looked at him, frowning slightly.

"We'll do our best" I said with a small smile tugging Spike along to the room.

"No wonder the slayer likes him, neither of them can take a dirty joke." he rolled his eyes then smirked at me. I giggled as I shut the bedroom door behind us. It was defiantly a guest room, minimal decorations and all, thankfully the curtains over the only window were drawn shut.

"I'm sure no one would mind if we were to do our resting clothes off since they're so dirty." I bit my lip looking at him.

"You read my mind pet." he murmured with a smile, already removing his duster.

Just then the door was pushed open and Kennedy peeked her head in "Just wanted to let you two know that Willow and I just now put a sound muffling spell on all the bedrooms. It will have faded by sundown but we'd figured it would help everyone get more privacy and rest." She gave us a thumbs up and a grin and left. I called out a 'thank you' before the door was shut all the way.

"I do actually want to get some rest." I said stripping all my clothes off, "Not yet though."
(cue sex scene)

"Now we can rest properly." I panted, laughing gently.

He chuckled as he brushed my nose with his softly, "I love you pet."

"I love you too."

~~~~~~~~~~~

There was a knock on the door and it roused me from my sleep. Thankfully, vampires don't have very deep sleeps because we don't really need to sleep. I groaned and nuzzled into Spike's chest "don't wanna get up." I mumbled

I felt his chuckle roll through his chest "We have an important job to do love."

Pouting I looked up at him "Does Angel really need both of us when he's taking two slayers with him?"

Spike's eyes glinted dangerously for a moment and I felt a spark of satisfaction in getting the reaction I wanted, "I'd rather not piss him off." he purred and traced my jawline then over my bottom lip with his thumb. I half closed my eyes and he leaned in to tug at my bottom lip with his teeth before sucking on it briefly.

"What did I say before coming here?" came Angel's voice startling us apart.

"We weren't doing anything too much we just didn't want to sleep in clothes that we've been in for so long." I panicked "We just slept naked that's it.I didn't wanna get up and teased him a bit"

Angel sighed "I'm sure my girlfriend has something you might like, She keeps her old clothes in that dresser." he gestured at one in the corner of the room "stuff that still fits but she doesn't like anymore. Cordelia already raided her main closet. As for Spike I think I left some of my stuff here, I'll see what I can find." with that he left.

Regretfully I slid out of the bed and padded over to the dresser to rummage around in it. I managed to find something that was close to what I was used to wearing. The skirt I found hit above my knees and I was for sure not used to that. However, when I glanced over at the bed where Spike was he was watching me in rapt attention "you should wear shorter skirts more often." he murmured beckoning me over to the bed.

Blushing, I drew closer "I dunno I feel kind of exposed." the top I had found also dipped much lower than I was used to, not as low as something Cordy would wear just not as modest as I liked.

He ran his fingers up the back of my thighs and behind my knees, meanwhile he kissed at my neck then traced my neckline using his mouth. I tried hard not to melt into his attention, we had to stay focused.

Without warning, Angel had come back and tossed Spike some clothes "get dressed please." he ordered before leaving again.

Spike huffed but pulled away and reached back to pick up the clothes Angel had given him. He raised an eyebrow in surprise, "this is actually very close to something I've worn before." he smirked "maybe me an' Mr.Grumpy-pants aren't that different." Carefully he unbuttoned the shirt and put it on doing up all but the top three. Now it was my turn to be awed by him.

"We should get you more of those." I murmured, much less smooth than his response to me.

"When this is all said and done pet, we will definitely do some much needed shopping." he smirked at me. I couldn't help but reach forward to trace the little bit of skin his shirt revealed. He chuckled and took my hand, pausing for a moment to kiss my fingers softly before standing up, "come on then."

We exited the room and saw that aside from us, Angel, Faith and Buffy; everyone else seemed to be asleep. The group of us exited as quietly as we could and got into the very same car that had brought us here and had also brought the backup to our rescue. It was another quiet ride to Lorne's bar, though Angel seemed to be going over something in his head as he drove. We arrived and as we entered the bar I noticed that it was completely empty except for Lorne looking very...nervous? at the counter. He seemed to startle when he saw me but he waited until Angel, Faith and Buffy had gone into a private room for their meeting to say anything.

"Fred! I could have sworn, I thought Angel telling me you were ok and that you had been turned was just a drunken delusion I had." he looked down, clearly embarrassed. "Though when I saw our guest I had my doubts."

This caused a nervous knot in my stomach but I tried to ignore it. Maybe Spike had sensed my nerves because he sat at the bar and pulled me into his lap running his fingers up my bare arms. This motion instantly relaxed me and I decided to distract myself by telling Lorne exactly how Spike had saved me through turning and how I'd gotten my soul back. This seemed to interest him greatly.

"Are you sure I can't get you two to sing for me?" he leaned forward just a bit "I want to see the connection, I bet it's beautiful."

Spike shook his head sternly "Sorry mate, I don't sing."

Lorne huffed though there was still a playful twinkle in his eye "Is that just a vampire thing or just a you and Angel thing."

Before Spike could reply I cut in "I think it's a personal comfort thing." I gave them both a gentle smile.

Shrugging Lorne headed into the back "I'll be back here, You kids have fun and do whatever. Just don't break anything."

I glanced at Spike and he raised an eyebrow at me.

"He really doesn't mind." I murmured then giggled against his lips before he kissed me. Finally, I allowed myself to melt into his touches as he ran one hand up the inside of my shirt and one hand under my skirt.Though something still held me back "Do you think this is really a good idea we're supposed to be on guard duty." My thinking growing fuzzy.

"Lorne is right there love, we're fine." he murmured kissing my neck gently. With that I relinquished myself completely. He sat me up on the bar and pulled down my skirt, I had just enough strength left to hold myself up. Then everything was a blur, I was torn from Spike's grip faster and stronger than I had ever experienced. The last thing I remember is him swearing and snarling and calling out my name as he tried uselessly to keep up with my captors. Then, darkness.

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Sfw memories part 6 Girl in Question-Not Fade Away (and a bit after)

2023-08-13T01:30:28Z

~~The Girl In Question~~

This one I'm only including to note two very major differences. While my parents still visited W&H the struggle was hiding my vampirism from them. The other difference is that, surprisingly, when Spike and Angel went to look for The Immortal, Spike was the one trying to keep Angel from going after Buffy. I only heard this second hand from Spike, but the bigger confusion was what Buffy was doing since Cordelia had said that Buffy was pretty happy with Faith. Spike and Angel actually met up with Faith and she explained that it was a ruse to get closer to The Immortal. With all that considered, more or less the same events happened.

I will indulge in a tiny scene that happened at the end of my parent's visit. My mom had just said that I really should get a boyfriend and that Wesley seemed like a good fit. I responded that I had a boyfriend already and Wesley already had a girlfriend in Cordy. Who, just so happened to be walking past at the time. It gave Wes an excellent way to distract my parents because I had just heard Angel and Spike coming up the elevator. I ran as casually over as I could, they were arguing again. It was Spike's voice that had alerted me to their presence, I seemed to be able to pick him out of any crowd of noise now.

"You're a bloody nonce, you know that?"

"At least I got us out of there." Angel snapped back.

"Not before we were blown up." Spike huffed. He looked annoyed as the elevator doors opened but his expression changed the instant he saw me. "There she is," he purred only loud enough for me as I hugged him. "I missed you love."

"Missed you too." I murmured before remembering the task at hand "My parents are here!" I hissed to him gesturing over to where they were chatting with Cordy and Wes, "they don't know about the 'thing'" I tapped my neck where he had drained me during my turning, "and I don't think they should."

Spike looked at me and then over to my parents "I can play human for a bit."

I relaxed "Thank you."

Grabbing his hand I walked back over to My parents. I introduced them to my 'boyfriend' and they asked if they could take us out for a meal to get to know Spike better. Thinking quickly, I made the excuse that I was busy with work all day but they could take us to dinner. I'd even take them to my favorite taco stand. They loved the idea.

Later, once I was certain night had fallen, Spike and I met my parents just outside of W&H. During the walk over and the whole dinner Spike was insanely polite and aware of every comment he made and question he answered. I mentally chalked this up to his upbringing back when he was human. After we bid good bye to my parents, he and I made our way back up to our apartment. He commented that "playing human" was a lot easier with a soul. I couldn't have agreed more.

~~~~~Power Play~~~~~

Once again only two major differences from on screen canon. Wes and Cordy spent their "last day" together trying to be as domestic as possible. Doing all the little couple-y things they didn't have time for before.

Spike still read his poetry for his "last day", he didn't need any alcohol with me there, but they were mostly sappy love poems for me. As he read the last one he pulled me up on stage to read to me directly. When he had finished and the audience was applauding he kissed me in front of the whole bar. This got us a couple wolf whistles from the more drunk patrons in the back. I was still blushing from the experience as he helped me down from the stage and we made our way down into Angel's tunnels. We took a turn that I didn't recognize and Spike explained that he had asked Angel to make this passage just for us. I didn't quite know how that worked but I had learned not to question the thing that happened in these places.

We reached a step ladder and Spike paused in front of it. "It's not super nice yet but I made it look as best I could for today." He helped me up through the trap door and I was stunned. He had started the process of cleaning out the underground part of a crypt. Along the walls were a bunch of different sizes of candles that made the place glow with warmth. While, yes it was still rough, I could tell he had put as much effort as he could. "I was thinkin' when we get though all of this we could seriously make an effort to move in here." he smiled at me hopefully.

I smiled back at him eagerly "I love it!"

(cue sex scene)

~~~~~~Not Fade Away (and after)~~~~~~~

This is actually primarily after the end. A few things to note, however. While I still killed my target it was through trickery and eventually eating them, meanwhile Wesley and Cordelia faced their target together and Wes distracted him while Cordy just cut his breathing tube. No lives lost.

In case you're wondering where Lindsey was kept, it was under W&H where they keep their prisoners and where Angel's werewolf girlfriend spends full moons. I don't know what happened to Lorne, I hadn't seen him since my turning. Angel said he went into deep cover running his bar again.

The rest of this is after the on screen cannon ends.

Angel had successfully taken down the dragon and had made a small safe zone somehow using the dragon's fire. It seemed to work like those insect repellent candles a small dome that the rest of the evil forces didn't want to touch.

Spike and I were backed up against a wall and just slaughtered another short slew of demons. We didn't have much time to recover as the next horde was coming. I glanced over at him and he smiled reaching out his hand, I took it returning his smile. We braced ourselves to run into the next wave when suddenly the crowds in front of us parted. For the several unlucky demons that couldn't run out of the way they were crushed under the tire wheels of a quite large and darkly colored car. I could have never guessed who was inside it, however.

First out was Willow and Kennedy, they both gave us little waves before heading back to Angel's safe zone. A few moments later a blue-white light spread over the area pushing back the forces of evil. Dawn emerged next, she grinned at us as she passed, toting a very large backpack. My stomach tightened as Faith exited the car, she helped someone else out and my vision narrowed. As if sensing my anger Spike pulled me into him and my vision widened back to normal. I was still seething as I watched her get out of the car but Spike's arm around me kept me calm and made me remember the extremely strong bond between us.

Faith and Buffy approached us, though Buffy looked nervous. "Spike...I just wanted to apologize for how I treated you back then. You were right, I didn't love you, I don't think I ever did." She winced and finally looked at the two of us properly "I don't expect forgiveness." She looked down at her feet and Faith put her arm around her, rubbing her shoulder tenderly.

Spike shook his head dismissively "I have a new start here, real love too." He smiled at me, "I accept your apology, Slayer."

A fire inside me flared when he called her such a formal title. The part of me that was still primal found satisfaction in the way Buffy looked stunned at this. She nodded and took Faith's hand "That's the best I can hope for." they left to join the others.

I turned to Spike and suddenly felt all my energy drain from me, mostly out of relief but also exhaustion. He caught me suddenly panicked "Fred, love, you alright?"

Clinging to him I realized I was shaking "Just exhausted." I mumbled.

He looked at me, puzzled for a moment then something seemed to hit him "You didn't drain your target did you?"

I shook my head "no, I didn't wanna drink too much human blood."

Easily he lifted me up "That's a relief, you still need the energy pet." he murmured to me as I buried my face in his chest.

The next thing I remember was the smell of animal blood and sitting in a really cheap camp chair. Spike was directly in front of me holding a mug, "see," he was saying "she just needed some blood." I took the mug from him and drank deeply. Closing my eyes, I could feel the energy returning to me. Finally, when I felt better I glanced up and tuned back into my surroundings. Willow and Kennedy were in deep conversation with Wesley and Cordelia. Dawn had set up a mini fridge and was talking with Gunn, her backpack was open on the ground and I could smell the salt of dried meat coming from it even through the plastic packaging jerky was usually in. Buffy and Faith were also discussing something with Angel that looked very serious. There was one more person that I hadn't seen get out of the car. He must have gotten out when I had run out of energy. He was a much older man with glasses and a very stern expression. Spike noticed my alertness and smiled at me "Feel better love?"

I nodded draining the mug, "Yes, very much."

He grinned and helped me stand up, "I believe you missed Giles coming in." he nodded to the older man.

The man, Giles apparently, noticed us and nodded politely. I had heard Giles' name in passing, only the one time with the rogue slayer girl.

Just then Angel called us to attention and everyone stopped their conversations.

"So, I have good news and bad news. The bad news is that Willow's shield will only last until morning. The good news is that most of the opposing army seems weak to sunlight as well. The other good new is that I was contacted by Lorne and he has found a contact that has high respect on the evil side." He glanced around pensively "They want to meet with me next sundown, so we have some time to plan."

"Did Lorne say who this contact was?" Wesley asked also looking thoughtful.

Angel shook his head, "No, he just said that I should probably bring backup." He took a deep breath "Which I have already decided. Fred, Spike you two will be my body guards. I'm taking Lindsey as a bargaining chip and Buffy and Faith will be my backup in the actual meeting."

Dawn raised her hand and Angel pointed to her with a slight grin on his face. "What about Team Magic?" she asked tilting her head a bit.

"Team magic?" Angel held back his amusement.

"Oh uh, I gave us names in my head based on who goes where." She flushed looking down briefly "Those of us staying here are Team Magic and those going are Team Vampire." She looked proud of herself.

I giggled to myself and would take up those names myself cus I found them amusing.

Angel coughed awkwardly "Right, While we're talking with the contact just take down the weaknesses of every demon you can find information on. Until next sundown we rest the best we can."

"Where will we stay during the day, we can't stay here or drive around all day." Cordy interrupted. Dawn glanced back at Spike with a smirk at this and he returned her smile. I made a mental note to ask them both about that.

"I don't think we can stay anywhere provided to us by Wolfram and Hart." Gunn said worriedly.

Angel stopped and looked thoughtful for a moment "My girlfriend's place! I'll call her and ask if we can stay there, since I had her fly out of the country for safety. She already sun proofed the place last time I was there too. We can leave just before sunrise." He paused and glanced at all of us "It's not that big so we're not gonna have room for anything personal." he said finally before Digging in his pockets and wandering away from the group to make his call.

Spike laughed to himself "Bossman is just mad that he can't get any right now." I giggled in response.

Suddenly realizing that we were both still alive, well technically undead but you get it, I sobered a bit pressing myself closer to him "We survived."

I felt his low chuckle as he combed his fingers through my hair "We did didn't we?"

I looked up at him just taking in his face and he pressed his forehead gently to mine. I closed my eyes and reached up so I could run my fingers along his cheek bones briefly before entangling my fingers in his hair, it was still slightly damp from the rain earlier. The rest of the world, and the others' conversations, seemed to drop away as he pressed a gentle kiss to me. Not being able to help myself I deepened the kiss.

"Hey Lovebirds! not the time!" the shout from Faith made us separate slightly. Spike and I were still holding each other as we looked over to where Faith and Buffy were sitting. Buffy seemed annoyed but Faith was slightly amused.

Willow glanced over "I warned you that they can't help it."

Faith rolled her eyes "Right the spell, isn't that just putting magic on what's already there though?"

"Technically yes but it makes the physical parts feel more important." Willow explained gently.

Faith shrugged "Whatever just keep it in your pants at least until we get to wherever we're staying."

Spike and both grinned at each other at that.

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Sfw memories part 5 Underneath/Time Bomb

2023-08-13T01:24:04Z

I was roused from my doze with the office becoming busy as morning came. Once again I was thankful for the magic glass as I felt a beam of sunlight fall over my face. That was one thing I was going miss was the warmth of the sun. I kept my eyes closed for a moment soaking it in as much as I could before I sat up.

"Must've dozed off." Spike murmured reaching up to stroke my cheek adoringly. I smiled softly at him taking in how good he looked in the sunlight.

"Good you two are awake." Angel was balancing three mugs again "Willow just called from the airport, they'll be here within the hour." he placed two of the mugs on a nearby table "I also made sure staff knows that there's another vampire to stock blood for. In the meantime, Fred, I think you should stay out of the lab until we have your soul back. I also have an errand to run later that I need some backup for I would like for you two to help." While it was phrased like an order but his tone if voice made it sound more like a question.

"'course I'm game, I wanna see what has boss-man worried enough that he needs backup." Spike smirked quirking an eyebrow.

Angel sighed "If you must know I need to talk to Lindsey and we need to go to the Hell dimension he's in."

I froze, I had gotten up to get my mug and bring Spike his own. At the mention of a Hell Dimension my stomach dropped and my vision narrowed again. Which reminded me of my new condition. I was stronger now, different, I could tear apart anyone who tried to keep me there, easily. At this my nerves vanished and my vision cleared. I took the other two mugs back and handed Spike his while settling into his lap. Taking a long drink, the first thing I tasted was the ocean and fish. We had only had butcher store quality blood at home, mostly cows and pigs. This was different, it had a more rustic taste almost wild.

"Fred, love you alright?" he squeezed my hand with his free one looking at me with a hint of worry in his eyes, "you had a 'grr' moment there, were you thinking of your past?"

I nodded "but I reminded myself that I could take down anyone there now." I smirked.

"That's my girl." he purred kissing me just long enough that I could taste the fact that we had got blood from the same creature.

I heard Angel sigh behind us and mutter "I'm going to have to get used to this aren't I?"

I giggled, just then the intercom on his phone beeped. "Willow and Kennedy are here." Harmony's voice came through.

He pushed the talk button "Thanks Harmony, go ahead and send them up."

There was a moment of silence but I could hear two pairs of foot steps climbing the stairs. I couldn't remember how i knew Willow but I remembered unleashing one of my rambles on her and she must have thought I was flirting with her. For the life of me I could not remember why she had come to LA to help, something to do with Angel's soul being gone? I shook my head wincing at the slight headache. The door opened and Willow entered looking, well I couldn't put my finger on what was different about her but she looked brighter? Maybe it was because she now spent her life doing her favorite kind of research with her favorite person in the world. Speaking of, I guessed the other girl with her was Kennedy. Willow greeted Angel with a one armed hug and then turned to where Spike an I were sitting. She gave Spike a small smile "So how are you guys?"

I nodded "doing well for having to regrow half my insides and now being undead." I laughed hollowly.

"Right, anyway Kennedy you already know Spike and you met Angel just now and this is Fred. She's Spike's..." Willow paused "I feel like girlfriend is too light now but Siree kind of misses the point."

"Life partner?" I tried flushing "partner is kind of your guy's thing though." I looked down at my hand still entwined with Spike's.

"I mean not really it's for everyone." She grinned "Besides Kennedy and I prefer the term Fiance."

It took me a minute to catch her meaning "oh! congratulations!"

She blushed slightly and Kennedy beamed "Yup we found a guy in Europe that would be willing to do a more traditional witch-y type thing."

Willow cuffed her on the shoulder playfully "It's traditionally pagan." she was still smiling.

My mood high I turned back to Spike and he looked slightly uncomfortable. My senses were immediately on high alert, "what's wrong?"

"if your wondering if you'll be invited of course you are, we wouldn't still be here if it weren't for you." Willow laughed softly.

"'s not that I just feel weird around wedding stuff ever since..." He looked more embarrassed now.

Willow blanched "Well if it makes you feel any better it's going to be very woodsy and rustic. The exact opposite of...what that would have been."

That heightened my curiosity, "What would have been?"

He sighed "A few years ago Willow managed to cast a spell that made everything she said come true."

Willow coughed "Yup and I may have sarcastically made a quip about Spike and Buffy getting married so they turned into this lovey dovey engaged couple. Only for a few hours, nothing too bad happened they were right back to being enemies after." she frantically finished.

I processed this for a moment my vampire instincts struggling against my human brain finally the word spell hit me and I laughed softly "Oh that's funny actually."

She looked relieved "In retrospect I guess." Kennedy rubbed her shoulder sympathetically. "Anyway, The spell is actually really simple, it just needs some major power behind it." she nodded digging in her back for a large book "All you really need to give us is some blood from both sire and siree and we have the rest. We just have to wait until sundown and perform the spell in like a cemetery or where the turning was performed. The cemetery would technically be more powerful." She glanced up at the rest of us "The blood needs to be fresh so just meet us at the nearest cemetery after dark." She grinned.

Angel looked awkward for a moment "Right, we have a thing to do so we'll see you both then."

Spike, Angel and I headed out meeting up with Gunn As we exited. He had handcuffed and gagged the kid from earlier who was now glaring daggers in Spike's direction. Before I could ask what the kid was coming along for Gunn spoke up. "We're gonna do a little swap out with Lindsey." he explained and the vampire instinct in me rose enough that I smirked.

We made our way down to the car lot, I didn't really question why we were here. I was just focused on keeping calm, I didn't have a good track record with hell dimensions.

The group of us got into a car and it was surprisingly able to fit all five of us. Gunn was in the front and had the kid buckled tight into the passenger side. Angel was sure to give Spike and I some room in the back. Still I pressed myself very close to Spike, more out of trying to keep calm than anything. Gunn seemed to notice this and cleared his throat "Don't worry Fred it's nothing like Pylia, I wasn't able to get too much info on it but I know for sure it's not like that place."

I felt Spike stiffen at the name "You didn't tell me it was bloody Pylia, pet. No wonder, I'm impressed you even survived." He pulled me into him as much as he could.

I laughed gently "I mean I went insane there but yeah." he ran his fingers down my arms gently and I closed my eyes.

"I'm not gonna let anything like that happen to you ever again love." He murmured just loud enough for me to hear.

When I next opened my eyes I was confused, it looked like we were in a suburban neighborhood. I sat up and got a better look outside and instantly got a strange eerie feeling. All the houses were identical, not just urban identical but like copies of each-other. "This looks pretty hellish alright." I said nervously.

He squeezed my hand "it's pretty unnerving."

Gunn pulled up next to one of the houses "This is it apparently."

Angel sighed glancing at the door "So we just run for it?"

Spike nodded with a determined set to his jaw. However my brain was working through something. Angel had been fine in Pylia, before I could say anything Gunn had popped open the side door causing both of the other Vampires to flinch. I giggled "Guys, alternate dimension remember? We're fine."

Angel blinked "Right."

Gunn shook his head "I was just about to point that out."

Spike looked embarrassed "You continue to be the smartest of us all pet." he smiled and kissed me quickly.

As we exited the car Gunn undid the gag on the kid's mouth "This is just so we don't look insane in there, you say a word to Lindsey and you're dead."

Gunn was checking a few things in the car and Angel had gone up to look at the front of the house, The kid turned to me and before he could say anything I held up the hand that wasn't holding Spike's "Before you say anything nasty the turning was my idea. I wasn't going to give up on life like that."

The kid's eyes flashed "You disrespect a loyal servant, I was only trying to prepare the perfect vessel and you had to go and taint it because you cling to life too much. She will have her revenge Ily-."

Before he could finish Spike had pinned him against the car, vampire face out in full "Don't you dare say that bloody name to her ever!" Spike growled "or I will let her eat you, no matter what Angel says."

I put my hand on Spike's shoulder and he lowered the kid down face returning to normal. Gunn stood up "What-" just as Angel strode over

"I leave you alone for 5 minuets."

Spike winced "Sorry mate, I just can't stand this ponce anymore. Especially when he's bugging Fred." he glared at the kid one last time before taking my hand again.

The group of us approached the house. Gunn holding the Kid by the arm in the back, Spike and I ahead of them and Angel leading. Angel knocked on the door and revealed an ordinary looking woman who greeted us kindly. Lindsey was sitting at a table with a child and stood up when he saw us. There was no recognition in his eyes. Anything Angel asked him seemed to go over his head, while they talked I noticed a pendant around Lindsey's neck that hadn't been there before. I pointed it out quietly to Gunn since he had the traitor kid by the arm. Then the woman asked Lindsey to go into the basement to get a light-bulb. Panic seemed to grip his face as he tried to reason with her but she was insistent. Gunn asked if we could help Lindsey out and she looked stunned for a moment then stumbled over a "sure, just don't get in the way."

We followed Lindsey into the basement and immediately the facade of this world was dispelled. Beyond the staircase there was a table surrounded by an unknown amount of torture and mutilation equipment. More than I had ever seen in my life, some I didn't even recognize. On the far end there was a giant roaring fireplace. Suddenly, Angel grabbed Lindsey's pendant and pulled it off. Turning to Gunn and the Traitor kid he quickly tied it tight to the kid's neck whose eyes quickly got that same glazed-over look that Lindsey's had. Gunn un-cuffed him and strode over to Lindsey who was still recovering. Quickly, he handcuffed Lindsey who barely had time to register what was happening. Spike and I barely had time to react as well. We heard the woman call down, but this time calling out to see if a "Knox" was finished with his friends. The kid put on a cheery smile and said we'd be right up. We took that as our cue to leave. I found it ironic that the last time I saw the kid was when I registered his name. Quickly I shrugged this thought off as we exited without incident.

As we were walking back down to the car Spike spoke up "What the hell was the point in us coming again? You looked like you had it handled."

Angel sighed "Can never be too careful here. If it helps I wont be needing you for the questioning aspect, we have more than enough of the means to hold prisoners."

Spike shrugged as we got back into the car and Gunn started it back up.

Turning back around we drove through a short span of the neighborhood before we were suddenly back in the garage of W&H. Gunn took Lindsey down to the cells below the offices, Angel went to follow them then paused and dug in his pockets "Here, the cars here have sun-proof windows. Make sure it comes back in one piece," He glared in warning at Spike.

Meanwhile, I beamed at Angel "You really are the best boss ever!"

He laughed at that "I try, I'll see you two at sundown."

Spike smirked "Thanks mate." his tone was genuine which took Angel by surprise. He gave us one last wave.

We got into the car and headed out the proper exit. I was momentarily surprised that Spike could drive but I decided it made sense since Angel could drive too. As soon as we got back to my place, it was a very short drive, I braced myself. I didn't know what burning in the sun was like. Spike looked over and took my hand smiling gently, "It's too short to do any real damage, Just run and it will be alright."

I took a breath and nodded opening the car door. It was almost instant, it felt like the worst sunburn I had ever had. Wincing as I left the car I ran for the awning that covered the entrance to my building. He was shortly behind me and almost instantly collapsed into his arms when he joined me. I was shaking with stress alone. Wordlessly he supported me as we made our way inside and into the elevator. During the ride up I glanced down and noticed that my arms and hands were already healing. My shaking stopped and I could stand on my own. "You alright now love?" he asked softly.

I nodded "yeah, it wasn't that bad like you said, It was just new."

He chuckled and took my now entirely healed hand.
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(one sex scene later)

Taking a few moments to recover he helped me get dressed before putting his own clothes back on. Kissing me deeply yet quickly before taking my hand. We made our way back down and I was relived to see the area between the door and the car was in entire darkness. The plan was that we were going to drive the car down to the cemetery but Angel would take it back to W&H. It was a bit of a longer way there since the cemetery was on the edge of the city. Thankfully, traffic was much better at night.

Spike and I were there first and he glanced around the cemetery as we waited. "what are you looking for?" I asked trying to follow his gaze.

"A crypt or somethin' for us, I'd like to move back into one if we can." he smiled gently at me.

I returned his smile "I'd like that a lot, I can start making a list of stuff we would need."

We were distracted from the search by Willow and Kennedy's arrival. Willow had a much bigger bag with her this time. "We're just waiting on Angel right?"

I nodded "yeah he has to take the car we borrowed from him back."

Willow nodded "Well I also have a short spell I wanted to give him. It's actually really simple. It binds a soul to whatever it's currently inhabiting. Mostly used to trap demons and such to a much weaker body but I thought it would work."

"It might, that sounds really useful." it was all I could do not to ramble on about it's potential applications.

Thankfully, I didn't have to hold off for long since Angel approached us. Spike returned the keys to him. Willow made him wait outside the cemetery gate as the rest of us went inside. She said it would interrupt the flow of energy.

She wandered around for a bit then set her stuff down in a patch of grass and gestured for the other three of us to sit. We did so and she placed a few items in front of her: a knife in a sheath, a bundle of herbs and some white candles. "Alright, so a few things to go over. Firstly, I just need verbal consent that this is what you two want."

Spike and I both gave affirmation, feeling a bit awkward.

"Next," Willow opened her book and flipped to a certain page "I'll briefly explain what is about to happen. What I'm doing is using the connection to Spike as an anchor to bring your soul back. This spell is super specific to literally your situation. A souled vampire turns someone, not out of malice but to save their life. The two already have to have at least a little bit of a positive connection." she laughed to herself "I think the Romani* writing this spell wanted to think of the most absurd thing."

Kennedy nodded and I reached over to take Spike's hand.

"Don't worry this isn't going to ruin the bond, if anything it will make it stronger."

I heard Angel groan with annoyance somewhere behind us and I giggled gently.

"And finally, this is going to sound a little strange, but Fred you are going to have to take Spike's last name." Willow said, glancing up at us "Names are very powerful things. It doesn't have to be a legally just as long as it's used by at least you two."

"I'm alright with that." I said blushing now.

"Me too." he murmured smiling at me.

Willow then made us hold both hands then she lit the candles, setting them around us. She paused and looked at the open book "Chosen gods..." she murmured "What do you think Ken?"

Kennedy leaned in and whispered something in Willow's ear who smiled and nodded.

Willow stood up and took the herbs, crushing them in both hands she said something in a language I didn't know, though it was definitely western given some of the words sounding similar to ones in English. Suddenly, I could feel as if my blood were heating up. Finally she held out the knife to us "You are going to need to to cut each-other so that your blood mixes, I'll let you figure out how to do that."

I looked at him "this sounds kind of cheesy but maybe on the palms so it's kind of like when I brought you back." I murmured, my blush increasing.

He chuckled "I like how you think love."

Taking the knife I took Spike's hand and shakily made a cut. I handed the knife over and winced as he cut my palm. Quickly, I reached for his hand. As soon as our open palms made contact I gasped as something deep inside me burned with a pleasant yet intense warmth. Shutting my eyes at the intensity of it, I saw a white light even so. I opened my eyes and noticed that the world seemed warmer. I instantly felt even more guilty over my reaction to Harmony earlier. The vampire instinct telling me not to be guilty was still there but I was able to quiet it easier. I blinked "That did it." I grinned.

When he smiled back at me my heart warmed. He stood up and helped me up as well, maybe it was still left over energy from the spell but every touch from him left my skin tingling. We thanked Willow and Kennedy and met up with Angel. Willow handed over the spell she had found to bind his soul to him. Spike and I bid the others a good night and we made the long walk home.

*AN: She used the G term at the time, I'm just uncomfortable writing it now.

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Sfw memories part 4 Hole in the World/Shells

2023-08-13T01:13:23Z

I saw the "Caveman vs. Astronauts" argument. I was wondering what was taking Spike so long after Angel had called him up. I couldn't help but side with Spike. Not just because I loved him but because his argument made a lot more sense in the long run. Shortly after is when the coffin tried to take over. I only remember him catching me as I passed out and his face being the first thing I saw when I woke up. He refused to leave my side at all. I still don't know how he got me home but with the resources W&H had I didn't really think to question it.

About midday, though with the curtains shut it was hard to tell, an idea popped into my head. He had been frantically reading through any books I had on hand. Spike could do research when it counted. I sat up suddenly and his entire attention was turned to me "What if you," I paused to cough "What if you turned me?"

He bit his lip studying me "That might work pet, but your soul..." he trailed off.

I leaned forward and took his hand in mine "We would find a way to get it back." I smiled "Besides, you did just fine for a long time."

"I did, didn't I." He laughed lightly, "But Angel might get an answer-"

Shaking my head I coughed again "He's not going to save me. I just, I have a feeling."

Spike moved to the bed next to me "Alright," he kissed my forehead gently "Let's do it, if you think it's the only way."

I smiled up at him wincing at the pain eating away at me "I do."

"I'm going to have to drain you first love, when I do I need you to keep drinking my blood for as long as you can ok?" he was shaking as he lifted a wrist.

I nodded, whatever it took.

He bit into his own wrist quickly before sinking his teeth into my neck. I felt the familiar euphoria take me over but I needed to focus. As I felt my vision grow fuzzy he lifted his wrist to my mouth and I drank. I closed my eyes as I clung to him, at first he just tasted metallic like any other blood. Soon that gave way to the smoky taste that reminded me of the cigarettes he smoked sometimes. Mostly, he tasted warm and of home.

He pulled away after draining me, feeling my sucking at his open wrist slowing to a stop. All he could do was wait. I wouldn’t take a breath either way. Had his blood been enough? Had turning been enough?

Spike watched me carefully, tears starting as my body shuddered.

I opened my eyes and I could see him visually relax “oh it worked, oh god I though I lost you pet.” He pulled me in and I laughed.

“Nope still here, still me.” I winced as I could feel my insides regrowing.

He pulled away and stroked my hair gazing at me in adoration “How do you feel love?”

“Mmm, hungry.” I smiled softly.

He chuckled “good I’ll go heat us up some blood.” He kissed my forehead for a long time before heading to our kitchen.

I smiled as I watched him leave, my love, my protector, my life saver, my sire.

The room felt more empty without him, colder in a way. I could hear him as he walked into our kitchen. Getting the blood out of the fridge and microwaving the blood bags. It was amazing how I could trace every single one of his motions by hearing alone. Then he must have opened one of the blood bags because I could smell it. My vision seemed to narrow but I didn't dare get up, my insides were still healing. They would need that blood to heal. Finally, he returned and laughed gently "Well we know now that it did work pet."

I looked up at him confused as I took the blood from him. "What do you mean?"

Spike kissed my forehead right between my eyes "Your face is all 'grr' love."

I touched it and felt the ridges dissipate laughing softly I took my first sip. The metallic tang was still there but it also tasted like the earth and probably the last thing the pig had eaten, something a bit like apples. Taking a moment to process this I looked back at him. "You always taste this much?"

"yeah, you get used to it." he shrugged.

I savored the flavor for a moment "Angel isn't gonna be happy with you."

He laughed again "I saved you that's all that matters, Bossman is gonna have to deal with that."

We drank our blood in comfortable silence but were startled out of it when the phone by my bedside rang. "Speak of the devil." I murmured.

He smirked at me and put the phone on speaker before answering it, "Angel?"

"Spike, how are things over there. Is Fred..." Angel's voice hitched nervously.

"She's fine mate." Spike grinned at me as I took another drink.

"Wait what? but I..." He paused "Fred?"

"I'm alright Angel, we figured something out." I bit my lip nervously.

There was silence and I could almost hear Angel's mind working.

"You didn't..." his tone was accusatory.

"What else was I supposed to do? I was gonna bloody loose her." Spike's voice broke half way through his exclamation and I let out a little growl in the back of my throat. No one was going to make him feel like this. He glanced over at me at the sound and kissed my forehead again calming me.

Angel must have heard my growl because his next response was very carefully worded "alright, we can talk this through in person once the sun sets. I have some stuff to take care of before then. Getting that "thing" out of the building and letting the rest of the crew know what's going on." He said absentmindedly.

"See you then Angel." I called out brightly and I heard him hang up. I smiled to myself "Stuff to take care of', sure."

"What d'you mean love?" Spike raised an eyebrow playfully.

"There's another full moon tonight so Angel has a date today." I smirked.

"Well, he's gonna hear about that later." he chuckled.

The rest of the day was spent keeping me with a steady supply of blood because I was healing quite a bit of damage. Eventually, with his help, I managed to take a shower. Even in my fragile state I noticed his fingers lingering on the sensitive parts of my body. I gasped softly "I'm in no condition..."

"I know," he murmured pressing a soft kiss to my neck "can't help it sometimes pet." he only lingered for a moment longer before helping me dry off and get dressed again.

By the time we finished the sun was starting to set and it was safe for us to head down to the office. Angel met us at the front of the building, opening the door for both of us. I could tell Spike was biting back a remark about how Angel's day/date was. There would be plenty of time for that later. As we headed up to Angel's office, he wanted me to stay there until we were sure everything was safe since it was the most secure and controlled room in the building, I spotted Harmony packing up for the day. As our eyes met I froze and could feel my insides bristle, what was left of my human brain said that she was no threat. The deep instinctual urge that was my new vampire side said otherwise and I let out another low growl my vision narrowing again.

She looked shocked for a moment, "you turned her? I guess that would be the best way to save her." she nodded in approval, "I'll get out of here, I don't wanna make things worse since that Sired/siree relationship is pretty strong." My eyes followed her closely as she left. I relaxed as soon as she left.

Then I turned and saw Spike had a bemused expression on his face. I flushed, embarrassed that I had even gotten mad. He chuckled and traced down my forehead gently, his eyes saying more than words could. He didn't blame me for getting mad and knew that these instincts weren't something I could help right now. Even so I couldn't help but mumble a "sorry."

"It's alright love." he murmured and tugged my hand so that we could follow Angel back up to his office.

"Here we are again." I sighed sliding easily into Spike's lap. Unlike the last few times we were here together he instantly wrapped his arms around my waist, holding me almost possessively. I welcomed it though, I figured that the connection that had strengthened between us effected him as well.

We were joined shortly by Gunn who froze when he saw me. "Fred...Angel said you were ok but, how?" he glanced between Spike and I. "oh, of course." his expression turned gloomy "this is all my fault, I didn't know what I was signing I-"

I cut him off by standing up "It's no one's fault but the person who was trying to get it here you had no idea it would wind up like this" I said soothingly "The turning was my idea anyway. We'll get my soul back and everything will be ok."

A steely determination set in his eyes. "Thank you, I think I know just who to talk to." With that he left.

I laughed softly and settled back into Spike's lap.

"Wesley and Cordelia are resting they were researching for a long time so I wanted to give them a short break, they'll be here a bit later." Angel explained choosing to sit on the edge of the desk instead of in his chair. "For now I figured we should run down feelings and changes you might be experiencing Fred."

I met his gaze while playing absentmindedly with the fingers of Spike's free hand, "Harmony said something about a 'sired/siree' relationship?"

Angel nodded "Yes, all vampires have a strengthened bond to the one that turned them, or sired them. If the vampire was unknown to them the best they'll have is their name and a generally positive opinion. Anything stronger , like love , on the other hand..." he trailed off and nodded in our direction.

I flushed and looked down "I got lucky then."

Spike chuckled and warmth spread through me at the sound, "Very much so, lots can go wrong with that kind of bond." his eyes flashed with a moment of hurt and anger and I felt my insides rise in anger as well at whoever had hurt him.

"Especially when two vampires share the same kind of bond with the one that sired them." Angel cut in, distracting me.

"You two had the same sire?" I asked doing the math as quickly as ever.

"Yes, it lead to a lot of fighting between us." he nodded regretfully.

"Don't forget about the other stuff it caused." Spike said with a smirk, pressing his tongue against his teeth in the way that drove me crazy*.

It only took me a moment to put the statement together along with the way he said it, "No way!" I exclaimed once the truth hit me, "You guys did-"

"It was only once and only because she wanted us to, and she wanted to watch," Angel huffed glaring at Spike "Don't tell anyone about it."

I shook my head in disbelief "I won't but oh my god." That news left a bubbly feeling in my stomach and my head full of questions that I was for sure going to ask Spike about later.

Just then the door banged open causing me to jump, and evidently my face to change into vampire form, Gunn had returned and had kicked that creepy lab boy** onto the floor.

The boy looked up and immediately lunged forward "You defiled it!" he screeched "The perfect shell! You ruined it!" he spat charging at Spike and I.

Thankfully, Gunn was able to grab him and easily restrain him "This is how that 'thing' got in." Gunn said furiously. "What should we do with him Angel?"

Angel stood up and crossed his arms "We keep him under watch through the night and figure out a use for him in the morning." he tossed a set of keys to Gunn "Lock him in the office next door, he shouldn't be able to escape."

Gunn took the boy into the next room and I visibly relaxed "That explains why he objectified me so much." I murmured as Spike tightened his hold on me.

"Bloody ponce." he muttered darkly "I would have let you eat him pet."

"We have a rule against vampires eating people here." Angel said firmly "Besides he could be a useful bargaining chip with the powers that be."

Spike sighed, irritated "Better than he deserves if you ask me."

I nodded "I wanted to eat him too." I pouted, doing this less out of actually wanting but more because I knew he couldn't resist my pout.

I was correct in my reasoning, as he turned my chin to face him "love, what did I tell you about tempting me like this in public?" he purred, his other hand gently working it's way up my back to entangle in my hair.

"What are you talking about I'm just agreeing with you." I feigned innocence.

He growled quietly and tightened his grip on my hair causing just enough pain to be enjoyable before pulling me in and kissing me hard. I melted into it, I realized then that he hadn't kissed me properly like this since I'd turned. Not out of not wanting to but just out of improper time or place. It felt just like the very first time he had kissed me, fire running through my veins as I entangled my fingers in his hair. It could have been minuets or just after when I heard Angel clear his throat and we were forced apart.

"Sorry mate." Spike said "got lost in the moment."

Angel sighed "I'm surprised it didn't happen sooner."

Suddenly I could hear what must have been Cordelia and Wesley approaching the door and Cordy stopping Wes before they came in. "Remember what Angel said, Spike had to do it to save her life."

"I know," Wes replied "It's better than the alternative."

I tuned out of the conversation as they entered and gave them both a soft smile.

He looked taken aback "Sorry I don't know what I was expecting."

Laughing I shook my head "I only get all vamped out when scared or angry, that's how it is with all vampires."

"Right, and you feel alright otherwise?" he still looked concerned.

"I mean I had to regrow almost my whole internal organ system but other than that I'm fine."

"See? she's fine." Cordy squeezed his hand gently. She leaned against a far wall still holding his hand as he leaned against her a bit.

"Alright, to business." Angel said taking a seat in his chair "Most importantly is getting Fred's soul back. Cordelia I know you and Wesley just did a bunch of research but maybe you could start on that?"

Cordy crossed her arms and raised an eyebrow "Why don't we just call Willow? she was able to get your soul back."

He looked slightly embarrassed "Or that would work yeah."

She strode across the room and picked up the phone on his desk dialing a few numbers. She waited for a moment then "Hello is Willow home?...Oh hey Kennedy sorry if I woke you guys we just have a bit of an emergency...no Angel's fine, it's Fred. She was going to be taken over by this coffin thing but um, someone took-yeah he did, did Dawn tell you about them?...oh! so she knows? So how come...I see...Oh yeah hand her over."

There was a brief pause as Cordy waited. When she mentioned Dawn's name my stomach tightened nervously unfortunately I was distracted by the conversation picking back up again.

"Willow! hey, did Kennedy catch you up?...good good so do you think you can help us? Oh that's great! Alright I'll let everyone know...See you then." She hung up beaming, "They'll be here tomorrow, they had just found some old spells that had to do with Vampires and souls." her smile stayed as she glanced at Spike and I "and Kennedy said Dawn told everyone about you two, she said that Buffy is really happy with Faith and is glad you are happy too." with that she strode back over to Wesley and took his hand again, "We are going to go get some real sleep."

"goodnight." he called as they left. Angel waved a hand at them.

My vision had narrowed as soon as Cordelia had mentioned Buffy's name and I hadn't really heard anything else after that.

Seeing my reaction Spike cupped my face in his hands "Hey, it's alright pet. There's no danger of loosing me. My turning you was a promise of forever." he pressed his forehead to mine and I could feel myself relax.

"Forever?" I murmured just loud enough for him to hear.

"I promise." he replied gently, stroking my cheeks with his thumbs. It was only then that what Cordy had said hit me in its entirety and I relaxed completely.

I didn't sleep exactly but it was more of a restful doze.

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Sfw memories part 3 Damage

2023-08-13T01:05:27Z

"You are not sending him in there alone, please go with him Angel." I leaned forward on Angel's desk. We had just received word of a little girl causing an inhuman amount of destruction. Since we didn't know what we were dealing with Angel had suggested sending Spike in to the psychic ward where she had been kept. He had told me this so I could go and tell Spike about it all. I had concerns about the whole idea, however.

"He's a vampire, Fred he'll be fine." Angel sighed leaning back in his chair.

I stood up and crossed my arms raising an eyebrow at him, "and if Spike weren't here?"

Angel tapped his fingers on the arms of his chair and sighed. "Then I would be the one going."

"So why not go as well?" I smiled a bit knowing I had caught him in an unwinnable situation, it was either admit it was because he thought Spike was disposable or relent and go along.

He rolled his eyes and got up "Fine I'll go with him..." he paused "But only because you asked."

I spent the rest of the day nervously trying to distract myself with work, even though Angel was with him I was worried that whatever had that little girl would do major damage to Spike. I finished with my tasks and couldn't stand being in the lab anymore so I waited in the lobby since I didn't want to go home without him. Finally the elevator doors opened and they both emerged, they had used Angel's sewer tunnels to travel so had entered from down in the basement. They were arguing over something, as usual.

"You let her get away." Angel snapped.

Before Spike could shoot a reply back I ran up to him and threw my arms around him "You're ok!" I mumbled into his chest.

"'course I am love," he murmured softly "I've survived worse than fallin' from the top of a building."

I stepped back quickly scanning him over "what?" I glared furiously at Angel who held both his hands up.

"I was busy talking to the doctors, it was Spike's idea to go after her." He crossed his arms, "Besides we have bigger problems."

"Yeah turns out the girl is a potential slayer gone nuts." Spike explained pulling me into him.

"I called ahead and Giles said they are gonna send someone to help out." Angel headed towards the stairs "They should be here already according to him."

I was mystified and slightly scared "I wouldn't have seen anyone I was in my lab most of the day."

"I know what you're thinking pet," Spike rubbed my shoulder "It's probably not Buffy but if it is I want you to know that I would never leave you. You have made me realize what I really need. What love really is."

I buried my face into his coat taking in his smell "Promise?"

"I promise love, you have no reason to worry."

We followed Angel up the stairs, Spike holding my hand tightly as we climbed.

Entering our largest conference room I felt a stab of relief that there was no long blonde hair in sight. Instead, sitting near the head of the table was a young woman. She couldn't have been older than 18 or 19. She had straight dark hair and her eyes lit up when she saw us enter. "Spike! but Buffy said..."

"I came back somehow, partially thanks to my girl here." I flushed as he pulled me closer "Fred this is Dawn, Buffy's lil' sis. Dawn this is my girlfriend Fred."

"Nice to meet you." I managed my face still bright red.

"nice to meet you too," she grinned to herself "I Suppose it's for the best, Buffy has very much moved on now. She's dating Faith now."

"Well that's a surprise." He chuckled sitting down and pulling me into his lap.

"If we're done catching up." Angel interrupted, "We have planning to do."

Dawn sighed and took her seat as well. It was decided that she would accompany Spike to where the slayer kid was and they would deal with her from there. It turned out that Dawn was also a potential Slayer; combined with her power left over from being The Key. A long story - she was some kind of energy disguised as a human. Made her a force to be reckoned with! That didn't stop me from worrying as they left. more hours of waiting and pacing Angel's office. He was nice enough to let me wait in there for Dawn's call that things were done. After what felt like hours the call came in.

As he talked to Dawn his face grew ashen, "They did it, he's alive but the slayer managed to remove his arms." he explained after hanging up. On our way to the site I called in listing off what we might need. It was much worse when we got there. Spike was pale and barely conscious. Obviously, had a lot of drugs in his system. Something inside me took over as I moved him to the ambulance stretcher and hoped in the back with him. My medical calm didn't stop tears from welling up in my eyes. I didn't leave his side all night, extremely thankful that W&H had a very good medical facility. Eventually, as soon as I knew he was stable and going to be alright I fell asleep curled up in a chair next to his bed.

His conversation with Angel woke me but I faked sleep until Angel left.

"Spike?"

"'m alright love, thanks to you and your science team." he smiled over at me and I leaned forward so I could stroke his arm gently. "doctors said I'll be back to normal as soon as the drugs in my system wear off." he murmured and I laughed in relief.

"I didn't leave your side, and I wont until we can get you home at least." I said firmly pressing my hand to his immobile one.

"I noticed that. Was watching you sleep before bossman came in. You never stop being my favorite thing to wake up to." he lay back and gazed at me admiringly.

I returned his gaze and curled up as close as I could get to him without interfering with any of the tubes and IVs. Eventually falling back asleep.
(not able to copy over my smile time memories since those are nsfw, just cut out those last 5 min)

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Sfw memories part 2 You're Welcome

2023-08-13T00:33:16Z

All through our meal I worried about that man we had run into. As we finished I made my decision “We need to tell Angel as soon as possible, feel like spending another night in the work building?”

“Only if you promise me you’ll sleep while we’re there.” Spike said reaching for my hand across the table.

I took it and nodded “promise.”

We got up and walked back over to Wolfram & Heart, I had to use my employee keys that I always kept on me. In the lobby there was a small lounge with only a few chairs and one couch. We decided to curl up on the couch together so I could sleep while he watched for any trouble. While he wasn’t warm he was still comforting to be held by and that alone was enough to lull me into sleep. I awoke to him gently but urgently rousing me.

“I think Angel just came down from his place.” Spike murmured and just as I lifted my head I saw the office light flick on. I got up and straightened myself as much as I could, opting to put my hair in a ponytail to hide its unkept state. Making a mental note to use the work showers as soon as I could. We ascended the stairs and I pushed the door to Angel’s office open.

“When I gave you the day off I didn’t expect you to be this early back to make up for it.” Angel said glancing up as we entered. Spike made sure the door was shut before joining me as I drew close to Angel’s desk.

“Well we ran into someone claiming to be ‘Doyle’ and he knew who spike was.” I said and recounted our run in with the mysterious stranger.

Angel’s face immediately darkened as soon as I described the guy “you ran into Lindsey. The man who killed Doyle.” He said bitterly “It’s not a good thing that he knows that Spike is back and has a reason to stay here.”

Spike pulled me into him and put an arm around me. “Why’d he think I’d be going to Europe?”

Angel sighed “Because that’s where Buffy is and it cannot be a coincidence that that’s where I told Eve you were going yesterday.”

I was shocked at this “you lied for me, for us?” I asked quietly.

He nodded “I told Eve that Spike went off to find Buffy and that you worked late into the night so needed a day off.” He got up and picked up his mug “I think we need to have a big talk with everyone once their all here. Can I get you some blood while I’m getting my own?” He asked Spike.

Spike shrugged “If you want mate, I had extra rare steak at the food truck last night so I’m alright.” He sat down in one of the chairs and pulled me into his lap.

Angel tapped his mug thoughtfully “I’ll get you some anyway, some for Harmony too.” He said almost to himself as he left.

“That was oddly nice of the old block of wood.” Spike observed as soon as Angel had gone. He pulled my hair out of its ponytail and began combing through it with his fingers.

I half closed my eyes “This is a serious matter, I don’t think he thinks this is the time for the usual annoyance.” I bit my lip thoughtfully “I think what I said yesterday gave him some clarity too. He kinda thought of himself as my protector and he needs to let me make my own choices.”

“You said as much yesterday yeah, did he save you from some demon or something?” Spike murmured still finger-combing through my hair.

“Kind of? I mean that’s how we met, then he saved me from-“ I stopped remembering my time ‘there’ and I tensed “A hell dimension.” I could feel tears form.

“Oh,” he cupped my face and turned me to face him “it’s alright love. You are here with me. Safe.” He kissed my forehead and wiped my eyes gently.

I smiled and tucked my head into his neck “I know I just don’t like to think about it.”

He made a noise of affirmation “Then don’t, think of right now. Just be with me.”

Closing my eyes I sighed and tried to do as he said.

We were startled out of our quiet moment when Angel pushed the door open with one arm. He was somehow managing three whole mugs at once “I brought you some coffee too Fred.” He said passing one of the mugs to me when I got up to help him.

“Thanks Angel.” I smiled taking my coffee and Spike’s mug of blood from him.

I perched back on Spike’s lap handing him the mug then cradling my own in one hand. Taking a long sip I tried to draw as much energy from it that I could.

“So I have a question.” I posed after watching the two of them for a bit.

“What’s that love?” He murmured licking his lips after a particularly deep drink.

“What causes the whole ‘grr’ face?” I asked putting up a hand in a grr motion.

He chuckled “you’re so cute pet,” he murmured “well it depends on the vampire, I don’t like to use it too much, only when someone needs a good scare.”

Angel nodded setting his empty mug on the edge of his desk. “Yup, I don’t use it unless I need to.”

“So it’s voluntary.” I noted taking another long drink of my coffee.

“Eventually it is, it takes practice. At first it’s when they are mad or scared.” He explained, checking his notes.

There was a short pause before Gunn came in. I could see his eyes flick up and down taking in the situation. I mentally braced for as least some kind of confrontation.

“So you managed to fix Spike’s ghost problem. Good. So what’s with the emergency meeting Angel?” He leaned against the far wall, avoiding looking in our direction again.

I felt relieved but figured that of everyone he would be the most chill about us.

Angel tapped the end of his pen against his notepad “I’m not going to go into it until we’re all here just in case.”

Gunn shrugged “fine,” he glanced back over at us “Wes was right behind me, do you want me to let him know about you two. It might help him be less explosive about things.”

I laced my fingers through Spike’s free hand nervously “yes, if you think that would work.” I glanced up and smiled at Gunn softly. He nodded and opened the door and I could see his shadow as he leaned against the glass outside.

“What was all that about pet?” Spike asked running his thumb along my fingers.

I sighed “it’s complicated, those two have been fighting for my affections for awhile.” I took a drink of coffee, needing the energy now more than ever.

He made a face “and they both already don’t like me.”

Nodding, I sighed “at least Gunn has some sense of sanity. I don’t know how I know this the details are fuzzy but Wesley is explosive.” I winced, my head pounding for a moment. Blaming it on my exhaustion I drank more coffee, draining my mug.

“You can put yours and Spike’s mugs on the end of my desk here when you’re done.” Angel glanced up, putting his own mug on the upper corner of his desk. “I’ll take care of them after our meeting.”

Spike handed me his empty mug as I took them both up to the desk. As I was walking back I spotted Wes approaching where Gunn was standing. My insides squirmed nervously and I fast walked back over to Spike. He pulled me into his lap and kept his arms around me protectively. Just as I got settled I could hear shouting from the other side of the door. I braced myself as it got pretty intense.
Suddenly, Wes stormed in and glanced at us as if in shock. He seemed to process for a moment then relax a bit.

“It’s different when you see it huh?” Gunn said closing the door behind him.

“Yes,” Wes paused still appearing to let the imagery of us sink in “I’m glad you two are happy.” He said curtly, then took a seat on the far side of the room.
The tension in the air was growing thicker as we sat there. It was like an itch in my brain and it bothered me. I stood up suddenly not able to stand it.

“Look, I know this is a rough thing for you all to get used to but can you please give Spike a second chance? I don’t think any of y’all even considered he might be better now with his soul.” My accent slipping as my anger overwhelmed me, “He died to save the world and y’all treat him like he’s still soulless. Maybe this is a rebirth for him.” Shaking I sank back into Spike’s lap and he pulled me in close.

“I appreciate you defending me, love.” He murmured kissing my fingers gently. “I probably would have gone all ‘grr’” he laughed softly.

“A rebirth.” Wes muttered “Now maybe I’m thinking too hard but do we think that this.” He gestured at Spike and I, “could be the shanshu prophecy fulfilled?”

Angel looked up “but Spike’s not human.”

Wes shook his head “all the prophecy really says is that the Vampire with a soul will have his past washed away.”

“And when I brought Spike back I was only really thinking about how I wanted to prove he was better than his past.” I piped up.

Wes nodded thoughtfully “That would do it. A second chance at life is really up to the person or vampire living it.”

Spike chuckled softly “and you make me feel alive every moment pet.” He purred just loud enough for me to hear.
I blushed and hoped no one else heard.

“If that’s the case then we need to keep this under wraps as well. Our very own employers have been trying to use this prophecy to sway me into doing stuff so if they know they lost their bait then who knows what might happen.” Angel said thoughtfully.

“This idea never leaves this room then.” Spike said and everyone else made various motions of agreement.

A few beats of silence passed then the door opened again and Lorne strode in. He treated everyone in the room in his usual vaguely flirtatious manner then his eyes landed on Spike and me still curled up together. “Well well well, what an unexpected but adorable pair you two make.” He said with the biggest grin I’d seen on him in a while. “I would love to get you two on my karaoke stage just to see how strong that connection is.”

Spike gave me a confused look.
“He can only read emotions and futures if someone sings for him.” I explained in a hushed tone.

Spike made an uncomfortable face “I don’t sing.” He said stiffly “in front of others anyway.” He said much more quietly, in a way that I’m sure it was just for me.

Lorne shrugged “if you say so, my offer is open any time.”

Angel interrupted the lighthearted banter by standing up suddenly “Great we’re all here so I’m going to relay this very quickly so no one in higher ups hears about this.” He quickly rattled off who Spike and I had ran into last night and what he had said. What this all meant and why this meeting was so paranoid.

“So we just need to be extra careful around Eve?” Gunn questioned.

“And keep an eye out for Lindsey if you can.” Angel clarified.

Just as we were about to wrap things up the phone rang. Angel answered it, gave a few short word answers as his eyebrows climbed higher up his forehead in an unreadable emotion. “Great I’ll be right over.” He hung up then looked up with a numb expression “Cordelia’s awake.”

There was a blur of activity after, Angel asked Wes and Gunn to accompany him to the hospital. Spike wanted to watch me do my morning checks of the lab and Lorne was going to organize a welcome home party.

"I don't know why you want to watch me do this, you've watched me do it a million times." I said grinning at Spike playfully as we made our way downstairs.

"maybe pet but now I can watch you get flustered when I tease you physically too." he smirked.

I tried to play down my already rising blush and I could feel my insides clench in excitement. "please try to behave around my co-workers."

He drew closer to me as I was putting on my lab coat and he grabbed my chin tilting it up to look at him, "I'll do my best love. We may need a break maybe for you to shower?"
The turn in the question stunned me and I was at a loss for words as he stepped away and pushed open the lab door for me. I attempted to hide my blush furiously as I walked past him and into my workplace.

The morning passed quickly as I ran checks and fended off questions from my co-workers about where I was yesterday and why Spike was still around if he was corporeal again. I noticed that one kid who would not stop bugging me usually was sulking in the back and shooting daggers at spike. For the life of me I couldn't remember his name, not that it mattered. Once I had finished my morning rounds and checked in one what everyone was working on I excused myself to use the showers. It felt a bit weird using the showers in the daytime and I was thankful for the enclosed room it was in even if it did make the surrounding building look a bit strange. Part of me had always wondered why we had such nice showers right next to the lab but I was thankful for them now. Spike followed me in, of course, locking the door behind him. "What was that one idiot's problem? He wouldn't stop glarin' at me." he asked pulling off his shirt.

I hung up my lab coat and turned on the shower "not sure, he was relentless in hounding me for a date ever since we started working here. Throwing compliments exclusively about my body my way." I shook my head gently as we both finished undressing "it's so strange."

He drew closer and cupped my face in his hands "I'm glad I got to know your mind and heart first love, and you mine." he murmured "I think that makes everything feel like it means more," he murmured brushing my nose with his lightly.

I blushed gently and as he kissed me he backed me into the shower.
Lunchtime drew closer and I signed out of work for the day, everyone else did as well. Lorne had put together an impressively, well impressive that he had made it so, chill party. If you didn't know he had done it you would think it was someone else. It was very 'daytime office party'. I was happy to be done with work, though having Spike around physically made things a bit more fun. He seemed genuinely interested in the projects I was working on. Though a few times he would tease me, weather it was a quick physical brush in just the right place or he would try something a bit riskier when we thought no one else was paying attention. It was kind of fun and I wouldn't mind if work was just like that from now on.

When Cordy finally arrived I was one of the first people to hug her, except for those who had gone to pick her up, they had obviously gone to pick up some new clothes for her on the way back, She was stunning. Angel and the others had filled her on the majority of the situation so she seemed to take to meeting her new co-workers pretty well.

Not liking large crowds at the best of times I wandered back over to where Spike was sitting "Let me guess, last time you saw her was not the best." I said sympathetically.

He shrugged "Not a big fan of lots of people either."

Cuddling into him I giggled "That makes two of us. But hey isn't this an office party like we talked about?"

He chuckled deep in his chest "In the middle of the day pet? you are naughty." he said teasingly, kissing me quickly.

We were interrupted by a clearing of the throat. I glanced up quickly and saw Cordy studying the scene with her arms folded, "mind explaining what the hell all this is?"

"Ok, first off you should know that Spike has a soul now." I said frantically, then I explained in brief how he had saved the world and come back here as a "ghost" and how I had brought him back physically. I also explained that during his in-corporeality time we had bonded and started flirting.

She took all of this in without question then smiled when I neared the end and stuttered over explaining the more romantic aspects, not the sex obviously. "Well you two look happy that's for sure." she glanced at the crowd of people "Which means...hmm," she trailed off, "anyway I can see both of you don't like crowds so don't feel forced to stick around for me, we can always catch up later." she headed off into the crowd again with a determined look in her eye.

I turned back to Spike "well that went smoothly, then again she was always kinda cool with more unconventional romance. She had a thing for Angel for a bit." I shrugged "If anyone would get it it's definitely her."

He smirked "I always did like her, well I found her the least annoying at the time." he chuckled "should we get out of here love?"

Nodding I slid off his lap "lets go find an empty office a way from here," I held up my keys "got a universal key, perks of being head of science."

He got up, grinning, and I lead him out as quietly as we both could manage.
Most of the events of on screen happen relatively the same. After the party Cordy told Angel about a vision she had that had brought her out of the coma. It was similar to how it happened on screen but her vision gave her more description of the person whose tattoos it was. Sensing a familiarity Angel called Spike and I in and asked us to explain our encounter with Lindsey. Cordy looked hurt when I mentioned he used Doyle's name as a cover. Like onscreen we searched for magic symbols that matched the patterns Cordy saw. After figuring out where exactly Lindsey meant to go and Spike volunteering to go along I spent the whole time while they were down there worried sick. Pacing my office and not able to focus. I was so relived when he returned with only minor scratches. Like onscreen the suggestion was posed that we go out for drinks. Cordy and Angel still went back up to the office but she just told him her vision instead of vanishing. I was excited to see the two of them return and to finally hang out with Cordy after a long time. Spike, Cordy, Wes and I sat at the bar while the others were a bit more social. I think Lorne was organizing a Karaoke session and trying to get Angel to sing as well. I was perched comfortably on Spike's lap, casually sipping an Iced tea. I had had enough being drunk for a long time. Spike was nursing a beer but I felt it was just to be drinking something more than anything else. Cordy had had enough drinks where she was giggly and loud spoken but still understandable. Wes had done a shot with her initially after a lot of begging from her but now was just drinking water. She had called him boring for this but it was clear she was teasing.

"You know I never would have paired you two together but you guys are so cute!" Cordy giggled.

"Yes, adorable." Wes rolled his eyes and she nudged him playfully.

"C'mon can't you be happy that they are happy?" He muttered something I couldn't hear over the music but it made her blush furiously.

"That's one way to look at the bright side of things." she put an arm around him and he just smiled making no move to brush it away.

"Wow should we leave you two alone now?" Spike joked causing Wes to choke on the sip of water he was taking, "Teasing ya mate." Spike remarked smirking as he took a swig of his own drink.

I laughed stirring my iced tea with one hand "In all seriousness, I just think it's nice to find someone who gets you." I said vaguely. I took another sip of tea and frowned, I didn't taste alcohol but I still felt a bit floaty and fuzzy after a few sips. Suddenly, I very much wanted to find a quiet corner with Spike. Instead I slid further into his lap, wiggling in place a bit.

"Now whose insatiable?" he growled quietly in my ear. I glanced over at our companions. Cordy and Wes were having another playful argument over taking another shot. They seemed busy enough.

"I don't think they saw anything." I murmured linking the fingers of his free hand with mine. He looked over at my drink and furrowed his brow.

"I thought you ordered a normal iced tea pet?" he asked catching some remnants on the edge of the glass from my last sip on his finger and licking it curiously.

"I think I did?" I couldn't help but watch him as he thoughtfully tasted it. His eyes seemed to light up in recognition.

"I think we need some alone time." he said louder and Cordy looked up.

"There's an empty corner over there." she gestured to it. I got up managed an apology the other two.

I lead Spike over to the corner and curled up in his lap as soon as he sat down. "I'm glad Wes is happy, I was kinda worried about him after this morning." I said draining the rest of the iced tea from my glass. It seemed to settle in my stomach weirdly, making me feel light headed. Not in a way that made me feel drunk but in a way that just made me feel very clingy.

Spike chuckled to himself "Just shows there's hope for all of us."I glanced back over at Wes and Cordy and felt a spark of jealousy as I saw they had started to make out quite obviously. I turned back to Spike to gauge his reaction but he seemed more interested in watching me, "I've seen much more happen in demon bars love. They put all kinds of stuff in the drinks here." he purred and took my glass from me and smelled it briefly "For example this is clearly some kind of magical aphrodisiac." He smirked at me.

I flushed "I should have had you check first."

He shook his head gently "It's not gonna hurt you pet, just get you excited. I've smelled this one before it's nothing bad." I squirmed in place grinding on him slightly, only able to let out a whine, he chuckled "I should take you home though before we're half naked in public." he murmured pulling me close.

I pouted a bit at thought of having to move even a bit away from him and his eyes seemed to light up, "Don't tempt me like that love." he growled and I giggled.
"But it's working."

"I am going to edge you so much when we get home." he said darkly as he grabbed the back of my head and pulling me in to bite at my bottom lip gently before kissing me hard.

I moaned into the kiss as softly as I could as I ground on his lap.

Spike pulled away much to my disappointment "We should let boss-man know we're going home."

I whined and then slid off him "fine." I dragged out the 'i'.

He held firmly onto my hand as we wandered through the crowd searching for where Angel was. We found him still going back and forth with Lorne. Lorne desperately trying to get him to sing and him having none of it. He seemed relieved as we approached "Fred, please tell Lorne that I do not have a good singing voice."

"C'mon angel-cakes just one song? For me." Lorne grinned as he turned to us.

"Um, Spike and I have to go home." I flushed.

"Yeah 'cus someone here had a whole glass of the Iced Tea." Spike nodded rubbing my fingers with his thumb.

Lorne looked suddenly very panicked "Dammit I told him not to serve the good stuff to humans." he strode across the dance floor right up to the bar.

Angel looked at me concerned and then at Spike accusingly, "What's in the tea?"

Spike shrugged "Some kind of magical aphrodisiac, she's just a little clingy right now." He smiled at me as I tried to huddle closer to him, "Doesn't effect anything other than-."

Angel held up a hand "Got it, go home do your thing. Whatever." He looked over the dance floor and seemed to see something that caught his attention and he wandered off.

Taking this as a cue to go I tugged at Spike eagerly. We stepped out into the street and walked back to my apartment. Just before we went inside I noticed the sun setting over the LA skyline. most of the tall buildings on the street had completely blocked it out so our path home was easy and safe. I nudged him and he looked over and up taking in the sunset. "One of the perks of living in the big city." I murmured.
"Yeah." he breathed pulling me close for a moment. We stood just outside the doors for a moment just watching the pink fade from the sky. Eventually it turned to gray and I turned around. We went back up to my apartment and I mused on how long it would take for me to start thinking of the place as ours.

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SFW memories part 1 (see Ao3 link in my profile for the full nsfw ver)Destiny

2023-08-13T00:24:47Z

(still kinda spicy but no explicit sex)

I removed my glasses and rubbed my eyes with a sigh. Work was getting to me, it felt like there was too much on my plate but evil doesn’t take a day off.

“Don’t overwork yourself love.”

I jumped as I glanced up “Spike! You startled me, I just needed a break.”

A smirk played across his lips “wish I could offer more than just moral support.” His voice was almost wistful.

I glanced down at my notes to hide the blush creeping up my cheeks “so can I help you with something or were you just bored?”

“Actually I was doing some thinking just now and I figured out something you might wanna test. Remember when I was dealing with that Reaper ghost…”

“And you alerted me to you presence, yeah I do.” I finished for him finally regaining enough composure to look up at him again.

“Yeah well I haven’t been able to replicate contact with anyone else, trust me I’ve tried.”

I laughed to myself at this and this time he returned my smile genuinely. “Did you want to test more like that?” I asked moving to the front of my desk.

Nodding he held out a hand “if you’re ok with it I mean.”

Fighting to keep my face from reddening again I reached out my hand in return “Anything in the name of science.”

As his fingers touched mine there was an noticeable shift in the air I could almost feel his hand press against mine. I focused on that, I wanted to prove my point. That he was worth saving, that he was more than his past. That he was a champion too. There was a sudden glow starting at where we made contact and traveling up his arm rapidly. If he could have caught his breath he would have. As the light surrounded him it grew very intense and I had to close my eyes. When it faded almost everything was the same, except in moments when I had shut my eyes Spike had instinctively laced his fingers through mine. I caught my own breath as I noticed I could feel them. “I think that worked.” I breathed.

His eyes widened and he carefully put a hand to my cheek and a smile broke across his face. “I dunno what that was but it did.” He laughed cupping my face in his hands and almost without thinking he kissed me. I melted into it letting him back me up against my desk.

As he paused so I could catch my breath something bothered the back of my mind “what about Buffy?” I murmured.

He ran his thumb gently across my bottom lip as he hummed in the back of his throat “She thinks I’m dead, probably has gotten over me already. I don’t want to complicate things for her further.” There was an edge of sadness in his eyes as he took in my face. “‘Sides there has to be some reason you were the one to bring me back.” The sadness was gone, replaced with what I can only describe as pure lust. He tugged at my bottom lip gently with his teeth before kissing down my neck, softly nipping my skin in places.

I let out a whine in response. He was eliciting such a lewd response and I had a feeling he’d only just started. “Extra bedroom…in the lab…just in case.” I gasped pushing against him and he nodded stepping back so I could stand up. I tugged him into the room desperately.
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I woke, still wrapped up in Spike. Not wanting to move from this I closed my eyes again and focused on how he felt. Despite not having body heat there was a certain warmth to being so close to him.

“Morning.” He murmured and I opened my eyes to see him smiling softly at me.

“Hi.” I said wincing internally at the awkwardness of that response.

Thankfully he didn’t seem to notice as he kissed me softly.

“As much as I would love to go another round. I have work to do.” I said not making a move to push him away.

He groaned softly as he kissed down my neck “I know, I’m just happy it wasn’t all a dream.” He pulled away and out of me and a part of me missed him filling me up and his physical presence on my skin.

“Does this mean we’re a thing now?” I asked as I sat up and gathered my clothes casually checking and taking mental note of the time. It was still pretty early.

“‘Course it does. If you want it to.” He said biting his bottom lip nervously.

I smiled and leaned into him reassuringly “I do want that, it’s why I asked.”

He tilted my chin up to look at him then kissed me again. It felt more tender and more earnest this time. “Shower with me?” I murmured as we broke apart.

He smiled “sure.” After he gathered up his clothes as well we made our way carefully across the lab to the changing rooms where the showers were. Thankfully the shower was big enough to fit both of us much more comfortably than it would have if I had showered at home.
we both dressed in comfortable silence. As we waited for the elevator up to the main floor he held out his hand and I took it. Entwining my fingers with his. I couldn’t help but feel a little nervous on the ride up. Before when I was working on trying to get Spike corporeal again I had reassured Angel that it wasn’t just because I thought Spike was hot and charming and yet the first thing I’d done was get together with him. Then I remembered it was Eve who had brought up how attractive Spike was and something bothered me about that. I couldn’t put my finger on what.

“You alright love?” Spike asked, startling me out of my thoughts.

“Yeah just lots on my mind.” I squeezed his hand reassuringly giving him a soft smile.

The elevator doors opened and I glanced around the lobby, not even Harmony was there yet. The sun was just rising, filtering in through the magically tinted windows. I knew Harmony came in pretty early to avoid the full onslaught of the sun, Angel was probably already in his office given he lived in this building.

“Well should we give Mr. Grumpy-Pants the good news?” Spike smirked at me and I giggled.

“Absolutely, come on.” Still laughing to myself we crossed the entrance way, only momentarily halted for me to remind him that the glass was magic and he’d be fine, he hadn’t had to worry about sunlight as a ghost. Nerves still working the edge of my mind I knocked on the door to Angel’s office.

“Uh come in?” I heard his confused tone and I pushed the door open.

He looked up as Spike and I entered. Eyes flicking to us holding hands and I flushed “I don’t exactly know how I did it but we figured out that Spike could make physical contact with me and then we tried to see what holding hands did and then we figured there must be a reason it was me that brought him back and things…escalated.” I rambled my blush deepening.

Angel looked pensive for a moment “Fine,” he leaned forward “if I hear one word that you mistreat Fred in anyway I’m…”

Before he could continue I realized what he was about to say and my embarrassment turned to anger “you are not my protector, you’re my boss and have no business in my private life.” I snapped letting go of Spike’s hand to stride toward Angel’s desk “I only mentioned us getting together to explain why I didn’t immediately report his re-corporeality to you.”

Angel leaned back as I approached “I’m sorry, I do need to let you make your own decisions.” He paused and looked at me seriously “you will tell me if he does miss treat you?”

I nodded and he turned his attention to Spike “I’m sorry you had to see that. I’m glad you’re physical again. You can ask Harmony to get you some blood if you need it. Tell her I said it’s an apology.” He looked down at his notepad “and you two can have the day off.”

All the anger left me then “thank you so much Angel.” I tugged Spike outside eagerly.

“I owe you one, mate.” He called as I pulled him back out into the lobby.

“My apartment is in walking-or well running in your case- distance from here so I don’t think you’ll be in too much of a risk.” I explained glancing outside “plus the sun is still rising so there’s lots of long shadows.” I beamed at him.

He glanced outside “yeah I've gone through worse sun.”

I turned and noticed Harmony setting up her desk for the day “did you want to ask her about the blood?”

Spike made a uneasy face “not really.” He took my hand in his “I’m sure you have something I can snack on.” He murmured leaning close to me running his thumb along my fingers.

My blush returned “um, yeah I think that would be alright. Once I have some food in me.”

He grinned and led me out the door. Only pausing to use his jacket to shield his head from the sun. We ran across the very few streets between my work and my apartment. Only relaxing once we got inside the lobby. I led him into the elevator and up to my floor.
After I invited Spike in I made him wait in the entrance so I could close all the blinds and cover all the windows so the he could walk around my apartment without worry. After that I changed into a more casual outfit, sweatpants and a t-shirt, and fixed up some food for myself. He watched me do the latter with a bemused expression on his face. I blushed when I noticed him watching me, “Feel free to grab something to eat too if you do that.” I paused “Angel and Harmony stick to just blood so I’m not sure if blood only is a vampire thing or just a them thing.”

He chuckled “Nah I eat normal food too, mostly for the mouthfeel.” His voice lowered on that last word and my blush deepened. I glanced up from my food preparation and saw he was smirking at me in a way that made it very hard for me to focus.

“Good to know, I’ll keep some snacks around then.” I sat at the countertop opposite him and grinned back at him, internally cringing at that not great attempt at flirting.

I finished eating fairly quickly and cleaned up before moving over to the couch. He followed close behind me and almost immediately pulled me into his lap. Touching my forehead to his gently I took him in for a moment before I was distracted by his fingers grazing the exposed skin of my sides. As I gasped he used my moment of shock to pull me in by firmly gripping my hair. I moaned into the kiss slowly grinding on him. “You’re insatiable.” I teased grinning against the kiss.

“Yeah but you like it.” He purred back hand sliding up under my shirt.

“I do.” I murmured before kissing him again. Relishing in every single physical moment with him.
Maybe it seemed a bit fast to have these moments after only dealing with Spike being incorporeal for a few weeks but he had been constantly been hanging around my lab as I worked on solutions and we had gone from playful banter to teasing to I think legitimately flirting. That much built up tension was bound to wear anyone down to desperation.
((I don't know how to make this sfw but he did feed off me with a bit of extra stuff))

He pulled away far too soon and cupped my face in one hand “I’m so insatiable because I’m just happy to finally touch you.” He murmured.

I smiled and nuzzled into his palm “me too.”

“I want to make up for all the times you were working far too late and all I wanted to do was hold you as you slept. Or kiss away the worry that darkens your face far too often.” He rubbed his thumb along my cheek.

“What else did you want to do with me?” I asked pressing a kiss to his palm.

He smiled as his hand moved to tuck a strand of hair behind my ear, “sometimes I would watch you shower and want to join you, not like we did earlier,” he smirked at the thought “though that did cross my mind. I just wanted to be in that warm quiet space with you.”

His fingers entwined in my hair as I studied him with half closed eyes, “I haven’t been able to stop thinking about what I’d do physically with you either.” I murmured, cursing myself mentally for loosing my normally excellent grasp on the English language.

“Like what, Fred love?” He purred pulling me closer and pressing small kisses at the base of my neck.

“Well at Lorne’s party I wanted it to be you who was keeping me supported while magically drunk,” I closed my eyes all the way as Spike kissed down to my shoulder.

“And?” He prompted, knowing there was more.

“And I wanted to be the one making you happy at the party and I even wished,” I paused blushing as my fantasy returned to my brain with a single thought “I wished it was us he told to get a room.”
~~~~~
Later we were wrapped up in my couch blankets and he was drawing lazy patterns on my back. Every so often he murmured soft words of praise of how good I was during the whole thing. Just as I was noticing the last rays of sunset fading through my closed curtains my tummy grumbled.

“Pet?”

“Hmm?”

“I think we should go out to eat, I want to know what your favorite place is.”

I nuzzled into his chest “but I like it here just like this. I’m not that hungry.”

He chuckled “I hear otherwise.” He poked at my tummy playfully and I giggled.

“Okay, okay. Let me just go put something decent on.” Regretfully I disentangled myself and padded into my bedroom. I put on something still casual but able to be seen in public. Walking back into the living room I saw Spike pulling on his shirt but leaving off his jacket “we really need to get you more clothes soon.” I mused walking over to the window and peeking through the curtains just to make sure we were in the clear sunlight wise.

“I’m sure boss-man Angel will have something for me to do then I can buy anything I want.” He took both my hands as I walked back over to him “maybe even get a place for both of us.” He ran his thumb over my fingers and I blushed.

“I’d like that.” I tugged at him “let’s go then.” I smiled.

We headed back down and out of my building. As we were making our way to my favorite food truck, hand in hand about as couple-y as we could look, we almost ran into a figure running straight for us. Spike pulled me out of the way and the figure stopped. The guy seemed familiar but when I tried to place him my head hurt. He had long hair that looked kind of unkempt and gave off a casual yet 'don’t mess with me I’ll cut you' attitude. He did a double take as he looked at Spike and me.

“Well well I thought you’d be halfway to Europe by now.” He blinked as he registered I was clinging onto Spike “Looks like you decided to stick close to home.”

Spike drew me against him protectively “Do I know you mate?” He questioned stiffly.

The man shook his head “Nope, just saw who you were in a vision a while back.” He tapped his forehead “Saw you save the world, mostly I see bad stuff but it looks like it turned out ok for you.” His eyes flicked over me as if waiting for my reaction.

My head just hurt “either tell us who you are or leave us alone.” I snapped, my headache not helping my temper.

The stranger raised an eyebrow but just smiled “My name’s Doyle and I’ll be keeping an eye out for you.” He said making eye contact with Spike. The name instantly raised my suspicion but I waited until “Doyle” ran off.

“What a strange fellow.” Spike said scratching the back of his neck “kinda gave me the creeps.”

“You have a good gut feeling,” I said taking a breath “whoever he is he was lying to our faces.”

“How’s that love?” Spike asked taking my hand as we continued our walk.

“Because Angel told me Doyle died a long while ago.”

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